Realization.

So my practicum in Michigan finished last Friday.

Last 6 months was a great time to learn about the IE field and more importantly about myself......

I realized that I love coordinating events for college students focus on internationalization.
I realized that I knew about visa regulations more than I thought, but I cannot practice it and it is frustrating.

I realized that I really want to move to a big and diverse city.
I realized dancing Bachata and Merengue.

I realized I love reggaeton and dancing to it, not so much country music.

I realized that I matured and became being so positive.

I realized that I am an easy-going and I meet great people everywhere I go and I appreciate that.
I realized that my friends from SIT are my true friends.

I realized that I don't want to make trip plans anymore.

I realized I love the IE field but at the same time, I am interested in physiology and exercise science.
I realized in the near future once I got a full-time position, I want to become a personal trainer and work at both a university and the gym.

I realized that I love lifting weights and getting muscles.

I realized that I don't function in the really cold weather and miss warm and hot weather.

I realized that it will be 8 years since I had last proper Japanese style New Year, and I miss it.

I realized that it will be total 8 years for living in the U.S.

I realized that I am still kid, young, and immature.
I realized that I still want to improve so many aspects about myself, and will never satisfy about myself because I believe once you stop trying to improve yourself, that will be an end of your life.

Study Break and friends and unorganized random thoughts.

I am at the public library now to write my capstone.

I was on laptop for about 1 hour, wrote 1 or 2 page(s).

Now I am stuck, and don't feel writing my capstone. So, I decided to update my blog.

The end of year 2013.

My life is different from my plan. By age of 26, I planned to get married.

Reality: single. No!!!!

My plan regarding job: having full-time job in the U.S.

Reality: a grad student and unemployed. I mean I cannot work anyways. No!!!!

 My plan regarding where I live: Chicago or another big city in the U.S.

Reality: middle of snow in the U.P. Ummmmmmmm NO!!!!!! It is so cold! I mean it is a nice city, met many good friends. But at the same time I want to have more opportunities.

Over all: Life usually does not go as you plan. But that is a life. You cannot control a majority of things around you. You need to know your limit - know what you can control and don't even try to control what you cannot control.

I know this post doesn't make sense to you. But this is my thoughts at this moment.

Oh and guess what. You are the cause of your own stress.

I really do not attempt to organize this posting. This seems like my personal journal. Well, of course I don't share my deep feelings with others, but at least this is my surface of feelings. Ha!

無知の知。Know that you don't know everything.
文句言う間があったら、する事しない。If you have time to complain about things, why don't you do something to improve your situation? You decided to do whatever you are doing.